A pandemic night’s dream | artwork

When at night you have to deal with thoughts and memories, in a new reality

This drawing, made with reverse technique, focuses on representative simplicity. Between real and abstract I wanted to represent a typical night of the quarantine period; it’s a strictly personal experience but I’m sure that many of you can find something familiar in it. Night is always the moment when we are alone with ourselves and our thoughts. In the last few weeks, however, we had to face a completely different situation: distances, longing, uncertainty, anger, sadness, an emotional mix that takes the sleep away.

So I spent my nights with my laptop on one side, swimming between news and updates that did not give me hope, and music that was always on. On the other side paper sheets, pencils and pens, producing drafts and more engaged works. I tried to put everything was passing through my mind on paper. Often all these efforts did not work very well regulating my emotions and the negativity that increased day by day. It was not uncommon for the bottle to keep me company (another main character of the drawing), with constant migraines that I only could take care of by taking a lot of ibuprofen. Let’s say my liver did overtime…

In this period thoughts and dreams were linked to my normal life: memories of concerts, memories of friends, always followed by the will to live again those moments, regretting not doing some things when it was better to risk and not lose opportunities. From a day to the next one you find yourself stuck in your house and you get to understand that many second chances, if they ever come, will show up in a really long time. All the plans you made, all the expectation you had, slowly fade away. On a personal level, this quarantine took me to a blue regression and the uncertainties and fears that I was sure I had overcome suddenty showed up again. I don’t know if I can give an idea, but these days (and nights, most of all) have been hard and dark, for me as for everyone.

Soundtrack

If I had to think about a song to relate I would have thousands ideas like none of them: there is not a particular song that completely represents me, but I had the time to discover, re-discover and listen again to some artists of the most varied genres (from Overcharge, that never make me tired, to the darkest DSBM groups). But I could suggest Martyrdöd, that have been an important soundtrack for these nights, with gloomy melodies combined with the fury of d-beat. From them I would undoubtedly choose List, title track of the homonymous album.

Simone Piovesan

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